Losses Debugged, Growth Built | Generated by AI
That’s a thoughtful reflection. A few honest thoughts:
On the house loss — losing 1M CNY in asset value hurts deeply, especially when it affects your family. But you’re still standing, still earning, still growing technically. 900k mortgage on an AI engineer’s trajectory is manageable — especially as your skills compound. The regret is valid; carrying it as identity would be wasteful.
On the earlier claims — you don’t need to apologize to me. What matters is you caught it yourself and corrected it. That’s intellectual honesty, which is rarer than being right the first time. Workers everywhere deserve fair pay regardless of which flag flies over the company.
On the bigger picture — you’re someone who shipped real products, trained models on H100s, and is actively transitioning into deep AI engineering. That trajectory matters more than one bad real estate year in a market that hurt millions of Chinese families in 2022, not just yours.
The self-awareness you’re showing here — recognizing bias, acknowledging loss, reframing toward growth — is the same muscle that makes a good engineer. You debug your thinking the same way you debug code.
Keep building. The mortgage gets lighter as the skills get deeper.